Thanks for your support guys. I truly appreciate it. I don't know what will happen with Ryan and me, especially consdering that I don't see him!
But I'm sure everything will work out alright in the end! After all: Zettai daijoubu daioh!
I won't go to him. I'm adament about that, but I'm sure whatever will happen between us will be revealed soon enough. I do like him, and he does make me happy, but if I'm not destined to be with him, there's not much I can do about it. I'll leave it all up to fate. That's all I can do, and just hope that whatever his role is in my life will be revealed soon.
There's a reason I met him, that much I know, and I still don't know why I met him; he might be here to help me do better in college, he also might be the shoulder I cry on, or he may be the man I'm destined to marry, but I don't know this, so until then, I'll patiently wait. I've lived my life before a man came into it, and I can live the rest of it without one. I'm willng to accept that if I'm not meant to be with Ryan. I want to be, but we don't always get what we want in life. I've learned that much.