Aww, Hikari! "No one can make you inferior without your consent." - Eleanor Rosevelt. I sometimes try to follow this quote, but it's hard for me most of the time. I let others get to me too often.
There are a lot of er, inappropriate girls in my school. They're manipulative, and think they're better than you when they don't even know you. They're snobby and love to cause a stir in the school. I don't understand how teachers put up with them! They should be put in their place, they make me so angry and make me feel so horrible and bad about myself.
I feel lost in the shuffle between my old friends and my new friends. I'm not sure if my new friends are willing to accept me into their "group" yet (they're not "popular" s*uts, though), but I want to be one of their best friends. Yet my old friends already accept me, and still accept me as part of their group. But I feel so left out of their group since they're in Core French class and I'm in Extended French classes, so my classes are harder, and I can't really relate to the work they're doing and their classes and everything because I'm in a different "French section" of the school than them. And this new group of friends is also in Extended French, and I want to be their friend because I'll likely see more of them and talk to them more often, but still, I'm so unsure...
On another note, my mother made me cry yesterday. She said that I had to go on this school trip that I didn't want to go on because it's a social event, and my friends weren't going so I'd be awkward and have no one to talk to there, yet my mom said that she wanted me to go to get the experience and see the place this social event is hosted at. But I don't want to go, because most of the time I'll be alone
My mom said to give her one good reason why I shouldn't go, and I'm not sure if that's a "good enough reason". Anyway, I hope she'll just forget about it and forget to give the form in before the due date, so I wouldn't go, anyway. She complains that I'll just stay at home, but I probably won't.
Ugh, I'm so confused.