Mou, honestly, you're not really a control freak. Doesn't everyone have a "control freak" part to them? Maybe it's possible I don't even know what a control freak is *everyone falls down*. I don't think you control everything, honestly, I don't. I don't think being orderly (as in securing rules in this forum) giving advice, and being yourself is control-freakesque. But if you were controlling, it would only be to mean well, ne?
Gomen nasai for taking away from your questions, moezy-chan! But I really, really need to get something out of my system. And gomen ne for the long post.
Today, I was the homework monitor for my French class, and my teacher sort of got mad at me for checking the wrong homework. Being the emotional person I am (and having my period didn't help), I really felt sad. I think I'm an insecure, horrible person because I looked really exasperated. She was also answering questions from my other classmates, and I think I really bugged her because I was sort of dragging my feet (not on purpose), and I didn't and have never noticed the way I walked. Anyway, she got really mad, and said in a calm voice, "Kimberly, can I see you in the hall for a second?" And then she talked to me in the hall and said stuff about how she gets angry when she can't hear the person she's talking to, and how she was sorry that she hurt my feelings, and I shouldn't take it personally (she didn't say it rudely or anything). A few teardrops actually slipped out and after she was done talking to me, she told me I could take a minute in the bathroom. I did, and I felt really horrible about myself. I didn't notice how I walked, honestly! I think my French teacher thought I was doing it on purpose, but I wasn't! But I did feel horrible about putting on that exasperated look (by the way, I didn't put the look on in front of her face. I turned around, then looked exasperated). I feel really low, minna-san, and unlike other kids, I cried when my teacher wasn't even yelling at me or anything. I think I cried because everyone expects so much of me, like everyone expects me to do well and school, be a nice person, and I fell out of line and did something horrible. So, question: Do you think people that are outgoing, appear to be tough, and confident insecure?
EDIT: Shinu-saaaannn! *huggles* welcome back! We missed you!