//(CCS RP) Touya's Sacrifice (one-on-one rp)

[Sakaki]

In an alternate CCS universe, as soul mates Touya Kinomoto and Yukito Tsukishiro
are just discovering their love for each other, another is waking...waiting...from deep within Yukito...wanting what he has. Kind and gentle Yuki has no suspicions of the other that hides within him...but Yue sees all... and once coming out, may never let Yuki return...

Yukito/Yue ~ Pikari
Touya ~ Sakaki

[Sakaki]

Twenty year old Kinomoto Touya stood outside Tsukimine Shrine, waiting for his childhood friend, Yukito. Standing under the large sakura tree, Touya thought back to the last week and how he had asked Yukito to spend the summer in Tomoeda, with him...and how they had finally admitted their love...

It was late one night, as they had lay awake in their small shared college apartment, Touya trying to convince Yuki to stay at the Kinomoto house with him for the summer. Fujitaka would be away three months on an archaeological dig, and Sakura would be staying with her best friend, Tomoyo. When Yuki had asked in that soft, hesitant voice if he’d be in the way, Touya had looked to his friend with surprised sadness, that after all this time, he could consider such a thing...
Don’t you see yet how I feel, Yuki?
Touya had reached for him then, and held him...whispering the words he’d wanted to say for so long....”I love you...”

Both being too shy, they hadn’t brought up the words that were spoken between them since...

Suddenly Touya was brought out of his memories, as Yukito came running up to him, out of breath...smiling, and offering polite words of apology for his lateness.
Touya’s heart skipped a beat, looking into Yuki’s shining face, and he quickly looked away as a slow blush spread across his face. He reached out, lifting the large bag of groceries from Yuki's arms, "Did you get what you wanted?” Touya asked, as they began the short walk to the Kinomoto house.

[Pikari]

Tsukishiro Yukito's smiling face popped out from behind the towering bag of groceries as Touya relieved him of the burden, and he fell into step beside the other man. "Yep," he spoke brightly. "I bought everything we need to make dinner... and sweet buns for dessert. There were too many to decide, so I bought some of each kind."

He looked over at Touya, smiling, and felt his heart skip suddenly, remembering that night they had both confessed their love for each other. He had blinked back in surprise, hardly believing he'd heard the words right, until he'd finally gathered the nerve to reply that yes... he loved him, too. But they hadn't spoken of it since, and it was enough for Yuki to know that his feelings were returned all this time. He chewed his lip in thought for a moment but was soon smiling again, as he stepped up to open the door for Touya, whose arms were full. "Have you heard from your father yet?" he inquired. "How is the dig going?"

[Sakaki]

“Yes, I talked to him before coming to meet you...he’s excited about what they expect to find. But he’d be excited, even if they found near to nothing,“ Touya smiled, thinking of his father, as he slipped off his shoes, and carried the groceries into the kitchen.

He began to pull out the ingredients Yuki had bought for the croquettes they were going to make for dinner, and laughed softly, seeing the huge pile of sweet buns Yukito hadn’t been able to decide between. There were so many things Touya loved about his friend, and his impulsiveness when it came to food was just one of the things that made Touya smile.

Touya watched Yuki as he busily washed some of the vegetables in the sink, how his blondish hair lay in small wisps over his ears, and Touya couldn’t help moving close and reaching out gently to touch one of those wisps of soft hair......only you...Yuki.. And then Yukito was looking up at him, with those beautiful, surprised eyes, as Touya again felt a blush, and he turned quickly away to prepare the oil for the croquettes. Wondering when he'd ever be able to act upon the feelings that he'd already so freely admitted.....

[Pikari]

Yukito's breath caught silently as he felt a feather-light touch at his ear - he looked up in surprise to find Touya's gaze on him. He watched even as the taller man turned away with a blush, smiling and wondering at the way he could be so strong and protective, and so shy at the same time.

He turned back to the food, taking out a knife to begin chopping vegetables. He began slicing, humming softly as he did without even realizing it. Yukito looked up suddenly, aware of Touya's eyes on him. "Oh... I'm sorry," he said, immediately self-conscious. "That's probably annoying, right?" He dropped his gaze back to the food in front of him silently, but still smiling.

Unaware that there was another pair of eyes deep inside him...

...always watching... observing...... waiting.........

[Sakaki]

"That's probably annoying, right?"

Touya laughed softly as he turned back to Yukito. WIth a finger, he gently lifted Yuki's chin to look into his eyes, and smiling, told him, "I seriously doubt there is anything that you could ever do that would annoy me, Yuki." He held the other man's gaze for several seconds, as if trying to decide something, but only smiled gently and returned to his work at the stove.

After they had eaten and cleaned up together, Touya thought how perfect just being here with Yuki was.....how he never wanted to be apart from him...how he loved him so much that it sometimes physically hurt to look at him and not reach out...

And then they were standing in the backyard, looking up at the moon that sat high and full in the night sky. Touya glanced over at Yuki as he stared up at the stars...the moon...with that calm look of wonder that always seemed amazing to Touya...and he couldn't hold back his feelings any longer. Reaching out and taking the other man’s hand, he gently pulled him close, still disbelieving he could be this lucky, as Yuki looked up to him with pleasant surprise shining in his moonlit eyes.

“I love you, Yuki,” Touya whispered, as he lowered his head, his heart beating so hard and fast that he suddenly felt weak, as he touched his lips to Yuki’s for the very first time....breathing in Yuki’s soft sigh...feeling him against him...and never wanting it to end....

[Pikari]

There it was again. That skip of the heart, that almost physical pain of longing, that conscious breath... all from just being near to the other man. Yue didn't understand it. What did he - his "temporary form" - see in this man, this human? There must have been something to inspire this reaction, this love - or whatever it was. Something that Yue could not yet comprehend.

As it was, he could only lie dormant in this body, forced to hear, to see, to feel his other form's love and happiness - someone else's foreign emotions. He'd come to get used to it, as his consciousness slowly awoke inside of "Yukito". But more and more... Yue found himself wanting to feel for himself... to press outwards and break free... to love again...

Yukito tipped his head back in natural reaction to Touya's kiss, pressing back gently, welcoming the touch. He wanted this as much as the other man did, hardly believing it wasn't a dream. He didn't dare press too hard or move too fast, lest he should wake up and have it all disappear. His hand came up to rest lightly on Touya's chest, overcome with the warmth of his nearness, and his eyes slipped shut... not realizing that beneath the lids his pupils had faded to silver-grey...

[Sakaki]

Touya never wanted to let go...wanted to hold onto this moment...and Yuki...for always...hearing only the sound of their hearts...feeling only the one he loved, safe in his arms.....Yuki's soft lips moving against his...feeling the longing for something more...and only Yuki...

And then in a heartbeat, everything changed. Touya slowly broke away in confusion...feeling watched...feeling as if somehow Yuki was slipping away.�  “Yuki?” Touya asked, gently lifting the other man’s chin to meet his eyes...and what Touya saw chilled his heart...

Instead of seeing Yuki’s warm brown eyes looking up at him with trust and love, Touya's dark eyes stared back at eyes foreign to him....cold blue eyes with feline pupils of silver-grey met Touya's gaze, and he gasped, blinking slowly....thinking it a trick of the moon...�  "Yuki...." Touya whispered, as he felt a shiver run down his back....as he sensed another.....as if Yukito were no longer there...

And then Touya felt Yuki pulled from him, and he could only stand in shock and fear...as the one he loved began to disappear in an envelope of light...as Yuki began to change...

[Pikari]

Yukito's head rolled back as blinding white wings enfolded him. Seconds later they unfolded again, but the figure standing there had changed. A man - almost angelic if it were not for his cold frown and piercing gaze, his bare feet hovering inches over the ground, a long braid of pure white hair falling past his feet, and huge wings that nearly took up the remaining space on the balcony. His cold grey eyes looked up and down Touya, gazing on him for the first time in his own body, but his stoney frown did not change. His deep voice betrayed no kind of emotion when he spoke. "We meet at last... Kinomoto Touya."

[Sakaki]

Touya could only cry out, seeing Yukito disappear beneath those pure white wings...“Yuki!” And then ever so slowly, the wings parted...and Yukito no longer existed...

Touya took a step back, as the winged figure that had taken Yukito’s place slowly opened his eyes...the same cold, feline eyes Touya had seen gazing up at him as he had held Yuki close...the same piercing gaze that froze him to where he now stood, as the beautifully angelic creature looked him over...as if claiming Touya as his own...

"We meet at last... Kinomoto Touya."

Touya hesitated...the voice was deep, hypnotic...and he shivered slightly, sensing something he immediately disliked in the emotionless tone.
“You’re not human...” Touya whispered, gazing at the sensual wings and the man’s bare feet hovering inches above the balcony floor... Then worry pushed away his amazement and he demanded, “Who are you, and what have you done to Yukito?”

[Pikari]

“You’re not human...”

Yue's expression remained cold at the human's obvious statement, but he couldn't help being slightly amused. Then the boy was demanding questions of him. Predictably, of course, but Yue still found himself irritated at Touya's tone.

“Who are you, and what have you done to Yukito?”

"I am him," he answered directly. "I am Yue, guardian of the Clow, and the final Judge. Your 'Yukito' exists only as my temporary shell, that is all. I am his true existance. It is only because I have not been fully awakened that you have known 'Yukito' up until now. I have been watching you through 'him' up to this moment, and now, we finally meet. And..." he lowered himself until he hovered just inches from Touya's face, frowning eyes peering into Touya's dark ones as if they could read what they sought to find there. "... you interest me, human."

[Sakaki]

"I am him,"
Your 'Yukito' exists only as my temporary shell, that is all.
I am his true existence.

"You lie," Touya replied, but with uncertainty, and a slight bit of fear, for hadn't he just witnessed with his own eyes Yuki's transformation?

And then Yue was close...
"... you interest me, human."
only inches from his face...Touya could feel his soft breath on his skin, his dark eyes locked onto Yue's powerful gaze...and Touya felt a horrible, wrenching pull towards the angelic creature...and he fought to pull his eyes away...as he began to feel slightly faint, as if under a spell.

Looking away...afraid to look back at the eyes of the one who hovered before him, Touya grew angry, "I don't believe you. Bring Yuki back." he demanded.

[Pikari]

Yue backed away and crossed his arms over his chest, looking annoyed, as though the human's words were wasting his time. "You don't believe me? I'm standing in front of you, aren't I? Or are you too simple to realize even that? I will return to my temporary form as I wish."

The moon guardian lowered himself until his feet touched the ground, the cool grass coming as a shock to his bare feet - it had been so long since he had actually felt the real world on his own. He turned away, his eyes examining the house and the yard that surrounded them, although he knew every inch through Yukito's eyes.

[Sakaki]

Touya looked back to the one who said he was in fact Yukito...Yue,
as the man moved back slightly and flatly questioned him, a slight scowl marking his angelic face...

"You don't believe me? I'm standing in front of you, aren't I? Or are you too simple to realize even that?”

...and a creeping fear replaced Touya’s anger upon hearing Yue’s last sentence...

”I will return to my temporary form as I wish."

Touya’s dark eyes once again followed the one who called himself, the Guardian, warily watching, as Yue moved away and gracefully lowered himself to stand upon the grass.
Touya forced a deep breath and spoke slowly, carefully, questioning Yue.

“Where is Yuki now? Does he now exist within you? Why can’t he come out, as you can?”
Touya asked, trying not to let the fear enter his voice...trying to come up with the right words that would not anger Yue, words that would bring Yukito back to him...Yuki...the one he had been holding in his arms only minutes before...

“And why have you come out now?”

[Pikari]

Yue turned his gaze back on the dark-haired man, pinning him with an icy glare. "'Yukito' is nothing but a false form in which to conceal myself. He has no control over what I do... he does not even realize that I exist." He explained with some impatience. "And as for your final question..." He reached out, gripping the boy's chin in his fingers as he leaned closer. "As I said... you interest me."

[Sakaki]

Touya felt words of protest rising in him as Yue spoke...talking as if Yuki were nothing more than a disguise...not real. He struggled to keep himself from speaking, from demanding he bring Yukito back, as he carefully tried to comprehend what the man was telling him.

How could this be true?
How could Yukito exist only as a disguise for this cold, winged man that stood before him?
Yuki...

Touya’s eyes followed Yue as he moved closer...once again, feeling his dark eyes drawn...pulled...to Yue’s cool, feline gaze.
He felt a vague helplessness as Yue touched him...the man’s long fingers lifting his chin, gripping...forcing Touya’s face only a breath away...and feeling a dizziness rise in him once again, he tried to pull his eyes away, but Yue held the gaze, leaving Touya feeling suddenly...trapped.

“you interest me."

“Let go of me...” Touya murmured...unable to move away, pinned to where he stood by Yue’s cold, hypnotizing eyes. “Bring Yuki back...”

[Pikari]

Yue kept Touya's chin captured in his grip, as his gaze pierced into the other man's eyes, not moving even when Touya muttered his protest. He stayed this way for several long moments, eyes inquiring into Touya's with curiousity and even... hunger.

Without warning he pulled away suddenly, something almost like hurt flickering through his eyes for a brief moment. His impassive expression never changed and he glared at Touya, letting him know this would not be the last time they met.

"As you wish." The words were soft and icy.

Yue's wings folded around him in a flurry of motion, and seconds later, Yukito was standing in his place. The light-haired boy blinked up at Touya in confusion. He glanced about at his surroundings - had he been standing here before? What had happened? Oh. That's right... they had kissed. Their first ever kiss.

He had opened his eyes to see the strangest look on Touya's face. Something like hesitance, or even... fear. Had he not liked the kiss? Even as he thought it, Yukito couldn't help feeling that that wasn't it... that there was something else... off. The fact that he couldn't really remember anything after the kiss only made him more and more confused.

Hoping it was all his imagination, he spoke softly, unable to finish the sentence.  "...Touya...what...?"

[Sakaki]

“Let go of me...”
 “Bring Yuki back...”

Touya felt frozen as Yue looked deep into his dark eyes... as if searching out something he wanted... needed... and Touya began to feel a fear open in his heart... as if this winged man could reach into his very soul and take something from him... or as if he already had.....

After many long moments, Yue spoke...
"As you wish."
wrapping those pure, white wings around his body, and moments later, Yukito once again stood before him.

“Yuki...” Touya murmured, reaching out, suddenly pulling the confused man to him, clutching him close, protectively. Then touching his worried face gently... looking deep into the eyes that were once again warm... kind... his, searching for any remaining signs of Yue...and letting out a breath as he saw only Yuki before him...Yuki...

Touya held Yuki close, trying to still his heart that still beat heavily from the experience he’d just had, trying to show Yukito that nothing was wrong...for he really didn’t remember... had no idea... and Touya didn’t know of a way to even begin to explain what had taken place... what Yuki had become...

“Everything is fine... I just felt a little faint for a moment. I must be more tired than I thought...” Touya didn’t know if that was enough of an excuse to cover his strange behavior, and tried to smile down at Yukito reassuringly.
“I just want to sleep next to you, Yuki... hold you... only you...” Touya murmured softly, running his fingers through Yuki’s light hair and leading him into the house, away from the moonlight... which Touya suddenly distrusted...

[Pikari]

Suddenly Yukito found himself wrapped up tightly in Touya's arms, and he seemed to squeeze all the uncertainty away. And he wanted to stay like this forever, wrapped in Touya's warmth, almost feeling as if there was a chill somewhere trying to steal him away.

He let himself be led back to the house, and it wasn't until they were inside that Touya's words truly sunk in. "I just want to sleep next to you, Yuki... hold you... only you..." He shivered slightly at the words, knowing there was nothing more he wanted than for Touya to hold him all night.

But still he looked up at the other man with concerned eyes. "Touya, are you sure you're alright? You're not sick, are you? You might have a fever..."

[Sakaki]

Touya led Yuki through the house to his room, reassuring him gently that he was, in fact, fine now... just tired. He tried to push what had happened earlier out of his mind as much as he could, until he was alone and could think clearly over what had happened without worrying Yukito.

After they had gotten prepared for bed, somewhat shyly for the first time ever, Touya had reached for the lights, then smiling... gently pulled Yukito down to rest beside him, wrapping his arms solidly around the other man,  pulling him close... kissing his soft hair, and breathing in his warm scent.  He brought his face down to Yukito’s, smiling at how the other man’s eyes looked into his with such warmth and trust. Yuki's eyes...

And as he brought his lips down to gently caress Yukito’s, he tried to let their love erase the fear from his heart, not sensing, but remembering, the one he now knew waited inside Yuki...and Touya vowed to do everything in his power to protect Yuki from the one who called himself, Yue...