I wouldn't say that this is a rant, but I need to get something off my chest. It concerns my job and my way of life. One thing about my attitude is all or nothing. If I am going to do something, I don't go half way, I do it completely and to the best of my ability, and if I am unable to do something, and I don't or can't complete it, I won't bother to even do it. Take my personality for instance. I am very shy and don't like to talk to people that much, but once you get to know me, and I get to know you, I won't shut up. I will constantly talk without stopping. It can become annoying for people and they will tell me to stop talking. Sometimes it hurts my feelings and sometimes it doesn't.
But I'm straying off so let me get back to the topic at hand. At work today, we didn't have many customers and I was bored so I talked to my coworkers. They say I talk too much and I said that if I wanted to be quiet, I could and they didn't believe me so I said that I would stop talking. They said that I wouldn't last 5 minutes. So unless I had a customer that I had to take his/her order, I wouldn't talk. Then one of my other coworkers came in and he's usually happy but today he seemed upset. Using hand gestures and slight sign language, I asked, nonverbally, what was wrong. My manager said that his best friends grandmother died, and she treated my coworker like he was her own grandson. Then for no reason, she said to talk because she was already upset.
After that I couldn't talk because of a curse called empathy. When a person is upset I can feel it even if they don't show it, and then because they are sad or upset, it gets passed onto me. He was upset that she died, but I started to cry because I could feel that he wanted to cry. I'm still upset, but just getting that out has made me feel much better.
One more thing I wanted to say. People constantly complain that I talk to much, but the minute I won't talk, they end up complaining more, and then I start to talk again and they end up complaining again. I can't say I'm mad; I'm too sad to get angry, but it does constantly confuse me.